Dear Bryant,
Another a-ha moment for your mom! About two weeks after you passed your Daddy and I went to Lowes. I was having a hard time that day just being "normal" in public when I hear "Bryant will you help those ladies". The man working at Lowes was named Bryant- I just ran to the other side of the store and found your Daddy. This has happened so many times to me in the last 7 weeks. Last Saturday it hit me- I was having a bad day, got in the bathtub opened my book and the first line was "At Bryant park..." I just started crying and it hit me- that is your way of saying, in the sweet little voice i can only imagine you would have had, Mommy I am here with you. You are here with me all the time and I need to hold that with me on all those bad days.
Love, Mama
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
Dear Bryant- your Daddy is great!
Dear Bryant,
Saturday we received a letter from a former Hoover High football player. (i think he graduated in either 2001 or 2002). He was writing to give his condolences and told a story of how your Dad (to him coach shep) influenced his life. This player dislocated his elbow at a summer practice before his senior year. He writes how scared he was that this was a football ending injury. Now I knew your daddy was great at his job but I was so inspired to read how he touched this player (and I am sure there are many others) with support and love as well as medically "getting them back on the field". Terry Slay (the pastor at Hunter Street that helps at the high school) said to Daddy a few days after your service that he feels that your daddy "does his job showing his love for the Lord and that it shows". Wow! Wow! Wow! I guess now as a parent I understand that those people that have an influence (especially positive) on your children are so important and your Daddy is that person to so many of them. The two days after you passed away we had hundreds of people come by the house- most of them parents of former or current Hoover students. We were so humbled by the love shown to us. At one point I looked at Brandon and said "we are not this good to people" but I realize now he is that good to people. I just hope this is a lesson for me that I make sure everyday that whatever I am doing I am doing it showing my love for the Lord!
By the way- I miss you a lot today.
Love, Mama
Saturday we received a letter from a former Hoover High football player. (i think he graduated in either 2001 or 2002). He was writing to give his condolences and told a story of how your Dad (to him coach shep) influenced his life. This player dislocated his elbow at a summer practice before his senior year. He writes how scared he was that this was a football ending injury. Now I knew your daddy was great at his job but I was so inspired to read how he touched this player (and I am sure there are many others) with support and love as well as medically "getting them back on the field". Terry Slay (the pastor at Hunter Street that helps at the high school) said to Daddy a few days after your service that he feels that your daddy "does his job showing his love for the Lord and that it shows". Wow! Wow! Wow! I guess now as a parent I understand that those people that have an influence (especially positive) on your children are so important and your Daddy is that person to so many of them. The two days after you passed away we had hundreds of people come by the house- most of them parents of former or current Hoover students. We were so humbled by the love shown to us. At one point I looked at Brandon and said "we are not this good to people" but I realize now he is that good to people. I just hope this is a lesson for me that I make sure everyday that whatever I am doing I am doing it showing my love for the Lord!
By the way- I miss you a lot today.
Love, Mama
Friday, March 6, 2009
Dear Bryant- the normal things are so hard
Dear Bryant,
Today was one of those "hard days" everyone tells me I am going to have. Why was today hard? Silly things like it is Friday, you are suppose to spend the day with me on Fridays, we went to the park after school and a lady had a baby your age in the same sling I had for you (remember the time you were in the sling in the mall, when your brother was taking forever in build a bear, and a lady thought you were a doll in there? as Brady would say "that was funny") or when Brady and I took Daddy dinner to the track and I could carry everything to him because I didn't have a baby seat in my hand. Why are these things the hardest? I talked to Ms Ellen today- I hope you are having fun with Vincent and her two other babies in Heaven- she misses them so much. She told me how she thought I was so strong if she only knew of my days like today when my prayer is "God please just get me through the day" And He always does, and he always will.
I love you and miss you so much
Mama
Today was one of those "hard days" everyone tells me I am going to have. Why was today hard? Silly things like it is Friday, you are suppose to spend the day with me on Fridays, we went to the park after school and a lady had a baby your age in the same sling I had for you (remember the time you were in the sling in the mall, when your brother was taking forever in build a bear, and a lady thought you were a doll in there? as Brady would say "that was funny") or when Brady and I took Daddy dinner to the track and I could carry everything to him because I didn't have a baby seat in my hand. Why are these things the hardest? I talked to Ms Ellen today- I hope you are having fun with Vincent and her two other babies in Heaven- she misses them so much. She told me how she thought I was so strong if she only knew of my days like today when my prayer is "God please just get me through the day" And He always does, and he always will.
I love you and miss you so much
Mama
Dear Bryant- Mama is starting a blog
Dear Bryant,
I am starting a blog. Now your mama is not a writer so there may be many people who read this once and never want to come back because the grammar and spelling drive them crazy (and run on sentences). But it will be from the heart. I started a journal two days after you went to be with Jesus and thought maybe I should change the journal to a blog. This will give the opportunity to share our struggles and joys with our friends and family and may be therapeutic for me. :) I hope to add the letters to you from my journal here as well to "catch" people up. I hope I can use this blog, through you, to glorify God as well. He has shown us His control and His love as only He can- maybe we can show that to someone else who is hurting.
Love, Mama
I am starting a blog. Now your mama is not a writer so there may be many people who read this once and never want to come back because the grammar and spelling drive them crazy (and run on sentences). But it will be from the heart. I started a journal two days after you went to be with Jesus and thought maybe I should change the journal to a blog. This will give the opportunity to share our struggles and joys with our friends and family and may be therapeutic for me. :) I hope to add the letters to you from my journal here as well to "catch" people up. I hope I can use this blog, through you, to glorify God as well. He has shown us His control and His love as only He can- maybe we can show that to someone else who is hurting.
Love, Mama
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