Dear Bryant- My 1st of "firsts" without you

Dear Bryant,

Well tomorrow is Mother's Day. My 1st first without you and it comes after a long week. Last Monday was rough knowing you would have been 6 months. I was thinking how you would be sitting up and starting to eat food. It makes me sad that I can not picture you like that. But once again the Lord has shown me the love I have around me.

Yesterday morning I received an Edible Arrangement from cousin Diane (very yummy by the way!) Her card said "Dear Marci- There is no footprint too small that it cannot leave an imprint on this world. Wishing you peace in your heart this Mother's Day knowing that both of your boys are in the best hands!! Lots of love, Diane" That note did my heart good!

Then yesterday afternoon I received roses from Nana and Aunt Ree Ree- they brightened my day and also reminded me how hard it will be for them to go through the firsts without you.

I sent Nana and Aunt Ree Ree frames for mother’s day with you and Brady in them. Nana called today crying after she opened it. She said to me "I don't know how you do it" and I said "I just do" Then tonight as I was reading Tony Dungy's Quiet Strength (for those of you who may not know he lost a son in 2005 and then won a Superbowl with the Colts in 2006 ) he wrote this after talking about his superbowl win and I felt he was speaking from my heart...

"And so we press on. We press on with our memories, our hearts buoyed by a God who loves us and wants us to know Him deeply. We press on with our sense that life's not always fair. And we press on with the knowledge--and assurance--that even though we can't see all of God's plan, He is there, at work and in charge, loving us. We press on with the conviction that even though we don't deserve the gifts and blessings we've been given, He gives them anyway. We press on into an abundant life on earth, followed by an eternity with God.”

I pray I can be as strong in my faith, loving God even through these times.

One thing I know for sure you will be missed tomorrow, as you are everyday!

Love, Mama